Money and Being Present
On Thursday I was balancing my check book and was super pleased with the fact that after my Aug. 15th paycheck, I would be able to pay all my bills for this month and have the extra $975 for my next payment toward attending the Costa Rica workshop in January. Yay! I thought…its all coming together!
But then Fri happened…on Friday, the little wart that I found on my dog’s paw the week before that was supposed to go away with some soaking and meds was suddenly larger and he was suddenly limping. I brought him back to the vet for another exam and as it turned out the wart was more like a cyst, that was not only large on the outside of his paw but twice as big on the inside of his paw. It needed to be removed and I had to bring him back in on Sunday for surgery. Life was not showing up how I planned. This doggie surgery and post care was going to cost me (is costing) $2000-2500! Argh.
Though I was sad and scared for my dog I was more centered than would have ever been before meeting Ariel & Shya. Pre-kanes I would have FREAKED OUT!!! Worried about the money, stressed myself and everyone around me. My boyfriend Damien was out of town and not very reachable (he was a guest at a camp for kids with cancer in Michigan and barely had reception), which was kind of a blessing in disguise. I had to deal with this alone and figure it out for myself and my doggie. I couldn’t indulge in feeling sorry for myself.
Sunday’s surgery went GREAT! And I was charged the low end estimate! Hayden (my pooch) is doing well and though he has some pain, he’s in good spirits! My credit card is maxed and my checking account is empty but my dog is healthy and I know it will all work out. In fact, on friday I got a call from a casting director at the soap opera ‘guiding light’ they want me to come in and read for a recurring role! Who knows if this will be the job that gets me back on my feet or not, but i’m not going to dwell on that. I’m going to get to work and figure out how I can make that money back, take care of my dog and be as present as I can.
Thank you for all your guidance. Transformation truly is magical!
xo
Grasie
