The Diamond of Today
Sunday, October 5th, 2008Today, as I was sitting on the train, reading a journal, I happened to look up and find myself looking directly and deeply into the eyes of a man facing me from a row away. It was a long moment of warmth and it filled my whole body, like there was a sun inside me, and it started to shine and warm me from the inside. I could not stop smiling and looked around a bit stupidly. The man also seemed to be unusually awake. I was quite shocked about my reaction, as my whole body seemed really large and warm- it was a very beautiful shock. And I realized that I did not have to have sex with this man and I did not have to exchange phone numbers nor do anything else that I didn’t feel like.
Realizing this was a relief from previous occasions when I would not even dare allow myself to look so openly into a stranger’s (especially a man’s) eyes, because of possible “dangersâ€.
As the train came to a stop, I told him how beautiful it was to just look into each other’s eyes and he replied, with a big smile, “ciao.†I then left (Actually, I flew!) because suddenly I did not know what to do. When I went up the stairs, I heard a voice behind me: “ciao, buona giornata.†I guess it was him, but I did not turn around- I was so shy about what happened and how much it touched me. This is my diamond of the day.
-Stephanie B.
