Paying Bills Feels Sexy
Dear Friends,
I had the opportunity today listen to an archive of the internet radio show, Being Here with Ariel & Shya. As I was listening, I found myself feeling softer & enjoying the sun shining into my home. The orange walls seemed to glow, and it was so sweet to see my cats cuddling. After it ended, I put on my coat and got ready to leave – but then leaned over and selected another radio show archive to hear. I find that this happens to me frequently. I have thoughts that “I need to leave” even when I;m enjoying myself and have nowhere specific to go. This time I really heard what Ariel & Shya said to the person calling in to the show, “If the mind wins, you lose.” That really hit me, and I sat back down unzipped my coat and gave myself the gift of “being here”. And I listened to the radio show, which was what I really wanted to do. I felt refreshed and clear-headed. It was great!
Afterwards, I enjoyed a beautiful ride on my bicycle in my neighborhood in Brooklyn. Everything seemed so bright and alive! I stopped at an ATM and noticed that I had thoughts about not having enough money. My salary has not shifted, nor am I in debt, yet these thoughts became very loud in my head. I looked at my receipt and much to my surprise, I had more money in my bank account than I thought – I could hardly believe it! Excited with the good news, I got back on my bike and returned home to pay bills. As I opened my door, I began to notice the trail of thoughts I was having, “I’m probably going to have late fees to pay, etc” Meanwhile, as I went through each bill, I was surprised to discover that I was, in fact, early to pay all of them! It amazed me how my reality was so different from my thoughts. In reality, I’ve been able to manage myself better than I thought I did. I wrote out checks and paid my bills. It was exciting to simply take care of what needed to be done and complete it.
I realize in retrospect that in the past, paid bills on time but never early. It never occurred to me before today to do that. And I walked away from the experience feeling so much more relaxed in my body, literally as if I just had a massage. It’s as if my thoughts about money, which I created as a much younger version of myself, had gotten locked into my body, causing my shoulders to tighten. Who would think that paying your bills could make you feel sexy and alive! That’s Transformation!
I really appreciate the recent the notes people are writing about sharing Transformation. I realized today that if I let my thoughts (and doubts) about sharing it win, then my mind will win, and I will lose the possibility of experiencing life fully! It has been such a gift to be part of this community and have your incredible support and friendship! Thank you!!
Love,
Jodi
