Costa Rica – A New Life!
Hello, dear friends around the world!
Costa Rica was amazing! It was such a treat that I was there for two weeks! My husband Jay, our friend Susan & I watched some of the video we shot in Costa Rica. And I was amazed to see myself. I looked calm and comfortable in my skin.
Costa Rica gave me the opportunity to be me. To be me in a place with 50 plus glorious friends in a land of pure beauty. It was magical as we all transformed and relaxed into the moment. The two weeks in Costa Rica gave me the opportunity to relax into myself, as I kept dropping the thoughts that requested I work on myself. The old mechanics didn’t have staying power as I didn’t entertain & indulge in urges of self pity. It was amazing!! And this skill set got easier & easier as each day flew by.
I was the “logistics” person for Ariel & Shya. And I got to see how I operate when I’m “working”. It was such a gift and so valuable. I got to see how I would automatically fall into self pity if I would make a “mistake”. This used to be how I operated at my job at the Bank (which I immediately saw in retrospect – my boss didn’t appreciate it – and that’s an understatement). My boss would get so frustrated with me when I worked on myself. I didn’t see this until I was in Costa Rica. Here was the game: if I went into self pity while I was performing my logistics duties, I would no longer be the logistics person. I love doing logistics, so there was a great price to pay if I indulged in self pity. I saw that if I’m lost in self pity, I can’t take care of people & my surroundings. It was a trip to feel the self pity mechanics automatically rise up within me and in an instant
see it, feel it, not judge it, and then continue with what I was doing in that moment, bypassing the uncomfortable place that used to keep me from being brilliant.
Needless to say, working this past week at the Bank was AMAZING. I had moments where I made some mistakes and I flushed & blushed with unkind thoughts about myself – all in front of my boss of course. In a split second (due to my awareness training in Costa Rica) I saw I had the choice. I then spoke with my boss without punishing myself (or her), and she quickly moved onto the next moment, trusting that I would make the correction, knowing that I supported her. I was partnering her and this is a powerful feeling.
Jay and I are in a new place in our relationship. We are partners in a new and expansive way than we were before we went to Costa Rica. I got see how I wouldn’t allow men to help me (a vestige from my pre-transformational feminist days). Jay supported me & participated with the Logistics and it was such a sweet and loving experience.
I am a new person. Costa Rica is the greatest gift I can give myself. I signed up again for next year. So much magic happened. If you’re thinking about Costa Rica 2011 – give it to yourself! I am so grateful for Ariel &
Shya, and for all of you in this Transformational Community. What a gift we have. A gift to share with others who have yet to discover Instantaneous Transformation. I’m looking forward to seeing some of you tomorrow night (with all of our guests!). And to those of you around this world (not in NYC) – I look forward to seeing you soon!
Sending my love to all of you,
Colleen
