WOW! What a workshop! What a life!
Dearest friends,
This last workshop was an incredible gift! So many things have been happening for me since.
Yesterday (it feels like so many days) I saw how I had a choice to go into a drama or not. My daughter Ayla told me she had gotten a Latin exam back and she had a 5 (very bad grade). A little later I noticed I was feeling very dramatic, with all the body sensations that go with it, but I actually saw that I could just carry on, finish work, go to my acting class, and deal with Ayla when I got home. So that’s what I did, leaving out the drama and I felt great, even with Ayla’s bad grade. Then at acting class the theme was sensuality and I got to act this out with a partner that would have been the last on my list of preferences and again I dropped the idea of not having the best partner in an instance and instead took care of him. My idea of him was that he is stiff and insecure, but how he showed up was brilliant! We had a wonderful time creating a dance on our office chairs, rolling around the room elegantly and this boy was actually a lovely man.
When it came to feedback time all I got was admiration and I could see how I upset myself with that, looking for someone to tell me how bad I was. But I dropped that and instead told the group about the workshop I did over the weekend in Hamburg, and that Ariel and Shya often tell the actors at workshops that they should take the attention off of themselves and take care of the audience and their partners and that is what I had just tried out. They loved the idea and next week I will bring some books and flyers and invite them all to the next international conference.
Today I realized that at the end of the workshop in Hamburg I was also a little unsatisfied, because Ariel and Shya only said “nice” things about me. I actually went over to Ariel and acted weird when I said goodbye and still she wouldn’t give in to my plea for criticism. And the best part is, I had to laugh about that when I saw it (instead of beat up on myself)….
Thank you Ariel and Shya for opening my eyes and my heart! And thank you my friends (including Ariel and Shya) that I am allowed to pour my love all over you.
Love,
Sandy
PS: So much more has happened, but I don’t want to keep you reading all day 
