I was recently walking around the theater where I am currently working, which is also a theater where I had worked many years ago. As I entered different rooms, offices and hallways, I kept coming across my drawings and photos framed on the walls from the different shows I had done. I had to laugh at myself, because with each drawing came a flood of both memory and astonishment.

First of all, I was astonished to see that these were the drawings which MY MIND had stressed over – and how they were ‘not good enough’. Yet here they were framed, years later. My drawings are the very first thing you see as you enter the managing director’s office and the artistic director’s office. As I looked up and saw them – and BEFORE I even realized they were mine – I thought “Wow, what a beautiful set of drawings”. Blew that whole story of ‘not good enough’ out of the water instantaneously!

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(From the blog “Floating on Water“)

Last weekend, I took an amazing letterpress workshop at Sesame Letterpress with Breck and Matt, and I designed and printed the muchas gracias cards in pink using their letterpress! The circumstances in my life that particular weekend were a bit funky. I was very worried because I was waiting for some test results from the doctor – I went to Mexico on the Labor Day weekend and thought I had caught a bad parasite while eating tacos. So I had the perfect setting to cancel my life, not go to the workshop and pout and whine all Saturday. But thanks to Transformation and what I have experienced with my friends from that community, I got myself to DUMBO (down under the Manhattan bridge overpass, a very cool neighborhood in Brooklyn) where Breck and Matt’s lovely studio is, and started working with what was in front of me… I had a blast!

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(From the blog “Bright-Eyed Life“)

At this past week’s Monday Night Alive, a successful young actor in the group began to speak about how when he gets a new acting job, he “puts his foot on the brake” in order to balance his life out. And if I remember correctly, sort of as a reward to relax for having gotten a solid job. Ariel & Shya told him how that’s the point in time when he should be putting his “foot on the gas” and not on the brake. He should line-up a new job for after his run of shows. The Kanes then asked “how good are you willing to let it get?” Meaning how successful will you allow yourself to be, without dimming yourself down to fit in with others? To allow yourself to shine brightly, regardless of those who might try to bring you down, because they are jealous, competing, or afraid that you will leave them behind. This is why a support system of those who can be honest with you about how you are being, and are there to really support you when others might aid you in diminishing in your greatness, though they don’t do it intentionally. I love the phrase “you can’t do it alone.” Boy, how I do wish I that I could do it all on my own. I naturally want to be independent and do it all by myself. Thing is that is a lonely way to live I’m finding. It’s easier and more fulfilling to allow myself to be supported, and to support others. It makes things feel effortless.

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